I am jealous that Paul Walker died first: Michelle RodriguezLondon, Apr 5(AZINS) Michelle Rodriguez has recalled how she was affected by the sudden death of her Fast & Furious" co-star Paul Walker in 2013.

In the new documentary The Reality of Truth, the 37-year-old actress explained that she did anything she could to get her mind off of his passing, reported Hollywood Life.

"I have to say, you know, when I lost Paul, I went through about a year of just being an animal. Like, what could I do, physically, to just get my mind off of existentialism? Get my mind off of how transient life is and how we come here and can just disappear at any moment. How could I get my mind off that?" she explained.

She added that using a psychedelic plant called Ayahuasca helped her come to realisations about his death. "I did everything I could possibly do to hide from myself and I'll tell you that my Ayahuasca trip made me sad that he left me here. It wasn't a sadness that he's gone, it's more like a jealousy that he's there first."